PICK THE PEA PROFFESOR

           three more weeks. three more book-ins.two book-outs,14days. 3 weekends.

 

          JUST ME, THE PARADE SQUARE. AND THE REPETITION OF POP-LOH CHEER

      i Don't give a damn to those ord-loh people, ur just another boring civilian.

hahahahahha

and kambeng's gonna be there. DOUBLE THE AWESOME FACTOR.

                                                short and simple for now.

    ' AM I NOT ENTITLED TO FEEL SPECIAL. I FUCKING SWEAR I'M NOT ASKING TO  BE   MENTIONED EVERYWHERE, BUT I'M RECALLING THE TIMES WHEN I WAS MADE TO FEEL SPECIAL, AND... SO FAR, NONE.

  I'M STARTING TO FEEL LIKE A LAST RESORT ON A WEEKEND.

  HELP ME JUSTIFY WHY I'M NOT.

                                                    

   

  Cut to the chase, i have 1001 stories in my head just waiting to be blurted out disorderly, but im just gonna talk about 1. 1 for now. 1 that has been playing mind monopoly. I NEED TO GET BETTER AT THIS GAME. talk less, think a lil bit more kinda shit.

  Sidetracking, ill love to invent a machine, that'll temporarily remove ur memories for abit, and restoring it back, at the moment when u need it, because, its not doing me any justice , thinking of the same "subject" over and over again , over a span of 12hours of my training time.

   Just for a simple reason, i FUCKING adore this "subject" .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3V_WAvshAg4

"One song about a girl
I can't breathe when I'm around her
I'll wait here everyday
In case she'll scratch the surface
She'll never notice

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl"


this is going to be an anthem for the next few months,
and I'm not walking away. Im just walking on.

So seldom have i  find jealousy an easy task to overcome, and amazingly everything starts at a point where you're subconsciously putting ur mind into it.

I have to be honest,I'm surprised how it has grew on me, and, never have i doubted myself when this started of , at a point of time, I'm even gonna to be feeling what i am feeling right now and listening to Paramore's new single "decode" doesn't help at all. Here's the link, give it a listen, ull know what i mean.  (www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvnkAtWcKYg)

Now,Suddenly, I'm looking for 'signs' for me to come clean and maybe commit, but you see "COMMITTING" has never not been a bitch. Never in my entire history of committing, have i find it easy to get along with "COMMITMENT", we're not the same kind (sic) .period. This goes deeper then that, its not complicating, but i'd like to believe it is.

You see, i seriously love spending hours just SITTING and talking about nothing in particular, but now, it just bugs me that i am one of the many at disposal , and I HOPE I'M NOT because you fucking trust me, I'm not even an inch tolerant when it comes to this.
 
I'm just saying, please give me sign, if its meant to be worked on. GIVE YOURSELF A DATELINE. please?

DONT FUCKING WHINE.

YOU SOUND LIKE A FUCKING HILL BILLY ASSHOLE

I,NOW SOLEMNLY PLEDGE MY LOVE FOR      ( AN UNCERTAIN PERIOD OF TIME)
MARIAM.

here she is...

the most fly girlfriend i ever had.
isn't she gorgeous

nothing have been inspiring me to write on , besides daily routines, which somehow sum up to be a major cliche, and honestly, as u would assume.

MAS selamat theory of escaping, is soo totally lame. I still cant get over the thoughts that they are actually thinking we're gonna buy that kind of reasoning they dished out.  so lame, that i was just so tempted, to find anyone of them minister's email, and bounce them with YO MOMMA jokes.

tsk, like seriously.

and this entry is gonna be a testimonial to madam holly seet ee ling for being such a good sport/ mentor/ guardian/ step-mother/ sister/ supervisor/etc.

and i mean every single sentence im gonna write in the following paragraphs.

i have never met somebody so generous and so much a philanthropist besides oprah.

NEVER. (i will like to give  a SHOUT OUT to my folks back home, for being such a good sport, i love u POP , MOM)

but like ive said, this entry is a testimonial to my dear MA AM HOLLY SEET EE LING.

she has do wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much for us. wayy out of statement.
anything said or written would simply be an understatement.
she has simply done "Magic" as the boys would said it.

*do that nigger thing, thump the chest twice and the peace sign*

RESPECTS. 18st! , heh.

and shout out to dudes back in the eunos GHE-TTO, SUP~
tanx for the night. MOS and CASH STUDIO?  perfect combination for an all out birthday party.
yessa.

PEACE OUT~

'ai commencé à comprendre encore.

je déteste les boyaux de cette fille

je déteste le fait qu'elle pense, elle ne pourrait être pas puni pour juste qu'elle a fait, et je dirais juste, « hé, son bien »

Je déteste le fait qu'elle vais environ pensant, c'était entièrement mon défaut que ceci n'a pas travaillé.

L'excuses pour n'est pas une meilleure chienne vers vous la fille.

Et voyager les vélos et pensant que vous êtes sur le monde, cela chie juste.



wala.

my finger itched alot today. maybe because of the sudden positive outlook.
 
I have a renewed motivation, to continue on my driving lessons.

Maybe because of the sudden urge of just driving around w/o a freaking licensce.
AND just so i dont do that, im continuing again. YES. doest matter if its enough time until i have to serve my fucking country. I LOVE MY COUNTRY, IM A PATRIOT. FYI.

and besides that, the idea of ferrying dozens of friends into my dad's spacewagon is kinda... urghhhh.Seems awesome.

Isnt it hard to relate.

MA'AM, see at how you are reacting, and this is even before ive told you what i wanted to say.
You're already beserking.  There's a reason, why i said, its better said in person. Seeing your reaction to me just saying that, is rather apprehensive, and this is even before i have mentioned what i wanted to say.

Honestly, if i were to tell you on msn, u would just go drama.. or besides that, give me answer that ur not "affected emotionally" like, "yelahhhh, eleehhhh, apa apa lah," So whats the point? i know you better, and thus that's why I'm not going to talk bout it, unless in person. Besides, you don't get it every time i talk to you online, its like I'm speaking to a 13 year old kid. You don't understand almost 3/4 of what I'm saying. thus another reason, why speaking online isn't a good idea.

and

the phrase "boys now adays" isn't relevant to be used on me, because, I'm not the one running back to my ex girlfriend that ive been avoiding like mad. I'm not the one that has been playing games behind your back. I'm not contradicting. When you avoid someone, u just don't go and meet them as if there was never an issue between you both, that's utter bullshit. When you dont call back  50 or so miss calls from a particular person, you just don't meet them and give a reason that "you don't have any friends",

wheres the logic???

 SO, you don't get to use the phrase "boys now adays" on me. SHAME on you. If you think I'm just into this for the soap drama, go ahead, find someone else that wants to be in your drama. I'm not cut out for this game. I suck at acting.

mood for the moment: confused

hey... am i a slapstick joke to you.
im working my ass out here.

damn~ brothers.

                      she doesn't believe in shooting
         stars  

but she believes in shoes&cars.

          what do you know.

flash, lights, lights,lights

        boleh give up tak?
    boleh pleassseeee.
       leceh ah sister.


              







                                  btw, lawa kan sik dekni....